wednesday: better outlook, still questions

I enjoy Wednesdays. After a Wednesday’s over, it’s practically the weekend, and the downhill surge has begun. Finishing seems to come easier than starting, in the work-week sense at least.

Today, I’m especially happy for my Wednesday, and that’s because it precedes a glorious day off tomorrow. In exchange for this day off, I had to work last Saturday, which meant a six-day week, which meant a more tired me. That, combined with fewer hours of sleep each night, extra responsibilities that the holidays bring and a few random interactions got me into that depressing funk that contributed to my overall discouragement late Sunday night.

It’s funny that being honest seems less frightening when you’re being honest with strangers, or mostly strangers. Writing from the perspective of anonymity emboldens. I’m not sorry for what I wrote, since it was true; nor do I think I’ll never feel that way again, or even that the feeling has completely left me now.

But it was cleansing to write it down and publish it. It was comforting to know that some mysterious internet void would eat up my words and digest them, like they mattered. And it was healing to read your comments (and e-mail, sweet K, who brought tears to my eyes). All of your advice was taken, gratefully, and I appreciate your concern.

I’m very blessed, with much to be thankful for, I know. It’s just that right now, I’m a little over-busy and a little over-lonely. It will pass, and it will return, and it will pass again.

I’m telling the One who cares, and I’m clinging to precious Truths I know. Right now, that’s very good.

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